I came home today after work hungry and had myself a peanut butter and jam sandwich, it brought back lots of memories !! and it also reminded me that I have to finish writhing this epilog.
I can honestly say that I had the time of my life this summer, the ride will live on in me forever I think, it was a truly an amazing experience !!!, and perhaps writing this epilog now is premature , but it’s time to put this blog to bed and move on, so here it is.
Epilog
And so it is over, no more hills to climb, no more bends in the road, no more setting up tents, no more decadent eating !!!, hard to believe that the summer has gone by and in that time I managed to cross the country on a bicycle.
I perhaps set out with the notion that I was covering a distance, going from A to B, but it was much more then that I now realize, and as is often said “it’s the journey that counts not the destination”. What a journey it was, not only did I get to see this beautiful country of mine from ground level inch by inch and be truly mesmerized by it, but I was able to share this experience with an amazing group of people, they started out as total strangers but by the end they felt like family!!!
I’m left now to ponder about this journey, left to analyze it , try and sum it up in a few words , impossible !!! , so instead here are some thoughts randomly put that try to summarize my feelings.
For me this was a journey of discovery both in a physical sense and in a spiritual sense, an odyssey of self awareness, of pushing physical limits and an appreciation of time and space in the living world.
Living without clocks, not knowing the day of the week, not listening to radio or watching TV is a luxury very few of us have, to be able to separate yourself from the reality of the world and to be able to live in it without it touching you is a rare thing, and it is exactly what I did this summer. And by doing so I was able to relax in a way I haven't been able to do in years and I was able to focus on the now and live the moment and truly submerge myself into the trip and enjoy the world around me.
Life is a simple thing that we make quite complicated; breath, feel the air in your lungs, feel the sun on your skin, stop and look; the pleasure of being alive is lost on most of us replaced by the hustle and bustle of staying alive, this trip gave me the opportunity to do that, to just feel alive and live an uncomplicated life for two and a half months. Life was simple and a joy to live !!!!
One has to stop and smell the flowers not just pass them by, yes they are beautiful to look at, but if you take the time to take in there fragrance then you really get a chance to appreciate there true beauty, and that is true with everything in life. Slow down, stop and see the world in front of you, don’t just look without seeing as most of us do.
I am asked what was your favorite moment, favorite place, what stood out, the answer is simple, the whole trip was it, not one part of it or another. Yes, there were many amazing places, many unforgettable moments, but they were only possible because of the whole. There wasn't a day that I felt I didn't want to ride, the road was a wondrous place, and over each hill and around each bend there was always something new to entertain the senses !!!
Another question I’m ask a lot is, did your butt hurt, and the answer is at times yes, but for the most part no.
Did I find that piece of myself I was looking for, that part of me that’s been missing, no I didn’t, you can never go back, life is lived in a forward mode, today exist just today and is just a memory tomorrow. I think was looking for some of the passion of my youth, and maybe I was looking for a sense of purpose also, I certainly had a sense of purpose during the trip but now it’s gone. So I’ll just have to be happy with what and who I am now and keep moving forward !!!
On a physical level I will never be this fit again and I relished the feeling and will miss it !!, it’s going to be hard to maintain !!
What is next ? I honestly don’t know. I don’t have any real desire to hop on my road bike at the moment, so instead I’ve brushed the dust off my mountain bike and went over to the Durham Forest with my friend Bob and had a fantastic ride !!, I’ll be doing more of that this fall.
Two weeks have gone by since St. John’s , I find I miss being out there, at the same time I’m happy to be back home. I look at the world a little differently now, I realize that I want to live life in the now and live it as well as I can, I feel mellow, relaxed but I also have a void in me, the road, my buddies they are not here anymore and I miss it and them. I’ll be dealing with all these feelings for a while I guess!!!
To all of you that followed along thanks for the company!!!, thanks for all the comments !!! it was great to share this with you. I have started another blog, it will never be as interesting as this one, but some of you have mentioned you miss the entries so if you want to be bored by my ramblings on, you can follow me at :
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And if you have a chance, hop on a bike, go for a ride, and if you can, and believe me anybody can, just take the time and go on an adventure !!!, you wont regret it !!!!
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And if you have a chance, hop on a bike, go for a ride, and if you can, and believe me anybody can, just take the time and go on an adventure !!!, you wont regret it !!!!